While I haven't stayed up into the Wii hours of the night for the same fun reasons as Jeff, I have been up all night myself the past few days. I can't sleep and can't seem to turn my mind off at night. It just seems like there's never enough time to do everything. Friday, which is supposed to be a fun mama and Pearl day, was spent doing the laundry, vacuuming every room at least 3 times (I think Cheerios have magical powers to transport themselves onto a clean floor), picking up toys constantly, dishes, and finally rearranging/cleaning out our back bedroom and sunroom/office. It was the first day I had to give Kimmy's old room a good cleaning and get the desk and bookshelf sorted. Then Saturday I suckered Jeff into taking the bunkbeds apart and moving the furniture around in the backroom. He didn't complain much, mainly because it meant he finally had a "man room" again to play video games in undisturbed. It seemed to take all day to clean but hey the DI is getting a big box of goodies from us. It's a good thing our house is so small because we have a lot of junk as it is so I can't imagine having even more room to keep stuff. Saturday night we went to a BBQ with some of Jeff's co-workers and played at a park. Out of 50 pictures, I think we got about 3 good ones of Pearl. We need a better camera!
Ok, back to the late night hours, so I'm supposed to be completing an internship for my MPH degree, not to mention the never ending work tasks that need to be done (and fine, I admit the occasional blogging - but as you can see I've been good and avoided the temptation this week because of everything else I had to get done). I really have been trying to do my internship but honestly the only time I have to work on it (plus take care of the housework, unwind from the day, and other projects I get myself into) is after Pearl goes to bed which can range from 8-9:30 depending on what we have going on. Plus this weekend I had to review 16 grants for a meeting on Tuesday which normally wouldn't be an at home assignment but I was out of the office last week for a training. Needless to say I've been up until midnight every night reading grants, not getting anything done on my internship, which has to be done before school starts next week, and then getting woke up by a screaming child at 2 or 3 in morning. I am exhausted! It seems like my life is tumbling out of control sometimes. I just can't seem to get it together. I feel totally guilty for not getting everything done and there's always something that gets put off again and again. Not to mention I've been a crappy mom lately too. How do the rest of you moms do it? You would think raising this adorable and funny little girl would be a breeze but no! Oh well, I'm sure at this point Jeff is "thinking why did I keep reading this post?" so I better stop. Sorry to complain to everyone and for the rambling which I'm sure makes absolutely no sense but hey my blog is sometimes the best place to vent without screaming and pulling my hair out!
